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Name: Yvonne
Birthday: 9/5/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: gymnastics, dragon boating, friends, dancing, my new glasses, my sunglasses, hong kong products, music and stuff, baking, stretching
Expertise: gymnastics, piano, hospital volunteering, taking care of my pets, sleep, eat
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AIM:  lilyazndevil
Member Since:
6/24/2004
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| personal goals on being a better person
academics
-be on top of things, no laggy lag
-go over some amount of lecture(s) each day
-be caught up with all lecture materials at least several days before midterms
-don't procrastinate on: nutrition portfolio, group project, research paper, applying for practicum sites
-for this week: do one cover letter a day for practicum sites, get peer-reviewed
personal
-excluding db practices and conditionings, consistantly work out on own
-increase endurance
-get back/maintain flexibility
-keep checking zotlink. don't give up on applying for jobs. make sure to follow up for the ones especially want
-also be confident with writing cover letters
-continue consistency with grocery shopping and cooking more rather than eating out more
-eat healthier snacks, aka fruits
to others
-and even tho eat out less, still remain in touch with friends and be sociable
-get regular dose of roomies
-when given time and opportunity, occasionally catch up with people
-knit more scarves for ppl??? lol
-be a better person, friend, "girl" to george
-don't get overemotional (clingy, mad, lovey-dovey, etc.)
-be more kind, relax and just be chill with him
-talk about my day, his day, strike random conversations
-be patient with him. get to know him little by little
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| well...i guess things in general are going well so far! not like a lot of stuff has changed, but i think my mindset has
(in reverse chronological order...)
-gave 2 of my xmas gifts to roomies, they seemed really happy and appreciative =]
(-but still need to give to other roomie and other friends)
-applied to a few jobs on zotlink, (finally!!!) so i feel pretty accomplished (for today)
(-but now need to do cover letter(s))
-finished my winter break projects! aka knitted infinity scarf and pillow case cover
-thought going back to classes would be whatever, but seeing people = making me happy!
-grateful for a new person in my life, george, making me happy, still getting to know him and stuff
-winter break and seeing friends and talking to friends made me realize stuff, like i guess friendship and just people and being a good person and stuff
-super grateful for family and being able to chill with them during break, especially my mom
so yeah, i guess just putting out my positive attitude in any way i can =] being grateful and making the most out of things, yadda yadda, i love how chill i am with people
and other stuff too, like wanting to make the world a better place, but gotta start small, right? did some stuff around the community so far for past few years, i mean i don't have to cure cancer or anything but at least touch the hearts around me and that are close to me.
so yep!
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| overtime, it seems like my sensitivity to sweets have significantly increased. i guess that's a good thing since i'd stop eating whatever i'm eating (ice cream, cookie, chocolate, etc.) faster. i don't think i'll ever give up on sweets, though o_o i love them too much.
so yay for dark chocolate over milk! (?)
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| as i think back, i know i'm way over the guys i've liked in the past, but a part of me always misses them and the times we had together. and if not for missing them, i at least respect all of them and sincerely do care about them.
and then i compare them with G.
i mean i like him...i like the affection he shows and his cheesiness, and i most definitely appreciate his effort into our dates.
and i guess sometimes his texts are cute, but we don't hold very long or real conversations. his cute texts make me happy though, but his long lag in responding doesn't.
i also wonder...do i like him for him, or just because i'm dating him?
so back to the comparing. i feel like with all the other guys i've liked and/or dated, there's something special about them. we have some kind of connection, there's a or some aspects i like about them, and above all else, they have the same university mindset, which is to work hard in everything, whether if it's school, relationships with people, their passions, some aspects in their personal lives, and/or working for their future. i'm not sure what else i see in G. i mean i guess he wants an A in his calc class. and sometimes he hangs out with friends, and he likes to play basketball. but i feel like that's not enough. i hate to say it, but i guess he doesn't reach my "standards," or just qualities that i prefer in a guy. it'd be so much easier to connect with him if we had that same, or at least similar, mindset/understanding. but all he does is school. i'd be more ok if he had a job on the side, but....22 years old, lived at home all his life, and doesn't work or is not involved with anything else. just community college. (and occassionally play LoL -_-)
i guess the more important aspects of dating a guy is his personality. his humor, kindness, respect towards others, effort, chillness, morals. the chemistry between us is definitely there. but given how we started, how much longer is that going to last?
i'm definitely working towards building a friendship with him and just getting to know him/trying to figure him out. i'm definitely giving him/this a chance.
don't get me wrong, though, i do like him. it's just...other stuff, too.
it used to scare me how overly hopeful and enthusiastic he was that we were going to work out. (i guess that tends to happen with the first boy/girl you date.) but on the other hand, i'm more used to hurt rather than experiencing love and intimacy, so i guess my attitude towards dating is to be careful, don't have high hopes (be ready for anything that can come), and take it slow (aka, build trust very slowly over time. lots of time).
is it so bad that, even though deep down inside i want all this to work out, i have doubts? in us, and in myself, too. (i occassionally question myself if i'm doing anything wrong, or if i should do anything differently.)
in need of perspective =[
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| don't fall too hard, yvonne...don't do it...(not yet anyway...or not for a long time..)
jus...........CHILLLLLLLLL
>.<
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don't get attached. don't get attached. don't get attached.
instead...
think about finals!!! yeah! those shall be my greater worries =D
D:
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